Tears of God ?

The Wind is blowing the pain away,
though all i see is trees sway,
Thunder & lightning,
maybe finally - Evil within me is Dying,

An outpour of showers,
Could it be they might be gods tears ?

I don't need 'em though,
Me, I love to remain in my known fears !

Nature's in all her glory.
There is Beauty in destruction too !

Moments like these I Feel,
my life is suspended,
& anything I want to Do, is impeded.

But yes, my soul still asserts,
The lights do burn
even in the storm,
albeit ever so dimly.
I remember a saying,
"A single candle can banish the darkness of a thousand nights!"

Can someone please give me mine ?

Yet the silence overpowers,
The silence of stillness inside..
Amidst the swaying trees outside,
I can hear the howling winds of change,
Sometimes I fear them,
What if they take Me away from me?
Yet, I also feel a silence,
a calm,
and Not just the usual sense of pain,
Amongst the rustling of flying leaves,
Chaos.
The leaves are the thoughts Iv'e thought,
Chaos again.
Chaos amidst the silent absence of thought,
I try to sit & think,
I think about thoughtlesness,
How can Silence can be so loud?
Amidst a stormy mind..
A mind overawed,
A conscience unquestioned,
A soul unloved.
A love unknown.
Sometimes I wish I had a heart, which, though away from me, is mine.
One that I can call . . My own.
And I know, finally
that I am Not alone..
@sh.


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