CHANGE

When i try my best but don't succeed 
When i get what i want but not that what i truly need 
When i feel so tired, that I can't sleep 
When I feel I'm like a car thats stuck in reverse.

And the tears 
The tears come streaming down my face 
They just do, they dont seem to care 
without me realizing, nor trying
I find myself crying,
For I've lost something that can't be replaced
nor repaired. 

When you love someone but see that precious precious love
There already is so scarce 
it goes to waste 
What Could be worse? 

I comfort myself,
hug myself from within.
within from without -- huh ?
I Comfort me by believing
the darkness will someday lift
& the Light will shine & guide me home 
But before that Ive to ignite these bones 
And till then, God will keep trying to fix me.
Crying while he's trying.
For which father can see his own child slowly dying..?

Whether high up above or deep down below 
When you're in love
You don't fight, you just learn to let it go 
But if you never try, to love - you'll never know 
Just 'what' your worth truly is, or can be to someone, somewhere ! 
But me being me, I end up doing none,
Ending up neither here nor there

I Comfort me by believing
the darkness will someday lift
& the Light will shine & guide me home 
But before that Ive to ignite these bones 
And till then, God will keep trying to fix me.

These Tears, they stream down my face as i type..
They've just appeared, they weren't made. 
For I've lost something that can't be replaced
neither repaired.
They've been here now for quite a while..
Oh Well.. I guess till then I'll just have to live with them
But on my lips, also a smile

I promised me I shall learn from my mistakes 
Yet Tears still stream down my face like a child,
But now - on my face at least I also have a smile..

I grew up. I realized that Unless I changed direction,
I was likely to end up where I was going.
& As I look at where I'm,
I'm not so sure, is it where I wanna be any more ?
Who but me can question that to change my destination,

I must first change direction.

... change direction.